Though the dizziness has receded my upper half is still pretty tender and lets not forget my now extremely oily and very spotted skin!! I went into a skin care store today and I explained to the woman that my skin had taken a 180 and was now very oily due to my pregnancy and I asked her to help me find some new products so that my freckles don't slide off my face in an oil slide. I informed her of the products I am currently using and she proceeded to argue with me and tell me that those are good products and that I'm probably not actually oily or that its probably just that I touch my face often. I informed her that I am positive my skin is oily and that I have not changed anything in my routine other than carrying a child and she just stared at me. Really? At this point those little hormone gremlins started showing interest in the artery that runs through her throat but luckily the blank look left her post-menopausal face (no hormones to fight back) and she started selling me some new products made to combat acne and oil. They better work for what I gave for them because if they don't I will calmly call the gremlins to arms and bring every last bottle back!
Moving on from women with blank looks who seem to think telling a pregnant woman she doesn't know what she is talking about is a healthy choice...
We heard the heartbeat on Tuesday! It was pretty amazing watching that little flicker on the screen and hearing that 154 beats per minute. Of course the first pictures we have of our offspring consist of a gritty grey oval within a slightly larger black oval but its got noise and movement and that means that the chances of miscarriage...though not completely gone...have lowered dramatically and that is helping me with the stress marginally.
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Stress and anxiety. I wouldn't be Sarah if I wasn't stressed or anxious about something but since I had to stop taking what I refer to as my "happy pills" and had an influx of gremlins take over my body I'm having a hard time being excited about even the "amazingly awesome" things like hearing the heartbeat. I'm hoping that once I enter that mystical 2nd trimester I'll start feeling more sparkly instead of like a black hole that sucks in and destroys all things good. I'm not quite sure how my husband has survived the last seven weeks. He is the bestest most wonderfulest husband in the whole world! Honestly I don't know how he does it because I swear the next time I burst out in random tears I might just slap myself across the face!
Yes I know... I'm the Debbie Downer of the pregnancy world but I'm telling like it is, for me at least! Interesting fact - I found out through a friend the other day that their are 13 girls pregnant attending my old high school right now and most of them are freshman. I replied that their may be 13 moms but their are probably only 2 dads - tacky I know but probably true! Can you imagine though? In a school that might have 400 students and 13 are already pregnant. I cannot imagine feeling this way, and being a teenager, and having to go to high school, and having to live with my parents, and not doing this with my husband! Makes me pretty sad! I can't wait to start doing my prevention classes in these schools! Hopefully I'll be able to keep some of these girls from going through this!
In closing, I'm thinking about that movie last night and how this mother's whole pregnancy was really crappy and she suffered from every horrible thing that could go wrong and yet as she looked down at her newborn in the hospital she realized she had finally found what she had been looking for - her glow. Here is to meeting my glow on January 6, 2013. As horrible as battling gremlins daily can be it will all be worth it when I finally get to meet the reason for the gremlins.
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