Unfortunately I woke up in the throws of a hormone swing today. Basically what this means is that the world is going to end, I'm always going to be fat, my hair is never going to fix right again, and it is a given I am going to meet the world's worst drivers on my way to work. This all runs through my head before I get into the shower. After a shower in which I realize I forgot my razor and face wash at my parents this weekend I get out and realize not only am I running late but I have groups this morning 30 minutes away and everything I need to hold group is at my office - like I said the world is going to end. Can I just say that I am so happy to be born a girl. I mean there are so many benefits to being a girl... and when I think of them in about a week I'll let you know. Until then I'm going to be in the lovely world of wanting to claw out your eyes and then crying all over my blood soaked fingernails and all because my bangs didn't blow-dry the right way!
So while wrapped up in my own menstrual melancholy (sorry to any male readers but it is what it is) I realize that I have several things weighing down on my mind today. This of course sets me down the path of random thoughts about how your emotional and psychological health is just as important if not more important than your physical health. The more drama that I have going on in my life the heavier I seem to feel. For instance one could look at it like this:
Fight with Father = 30lbs
Feeling guilty about missing a workout = 15lbs
4th grader asking me if I'm pregnant = 20lbs
Feeling behind at work = 10lbs
So with only four things in my day out of whack and I've gained an emotional 75lbs. This extra emotional weight makes losing my physical 65lbs appear impossible. I'm not giving up though! I might be swimming in the deep end of the wave pool today but I'm managing to keep my head above water... at least most of the time! The good thing about being at the deep end of the wave pool - Better work out in the long run!! It appears that not only am I going to be working out my Shoulders and Back today I'm going to be working out my heart and spirit.
Does anyone else feel this way? I know I've got a pretty dysfunctional social life for the most part but surely I'm not alone in letting things get to me this way! How in the world do I learn to take things less personally, and if I do learn how to do that am I going to lose my ability empathize with others?
On a different note -
During my training last week we discussed different communication and learning styles and I once again affirmed that I am definitely a visual and tactile learner. So in an effort to further motivate myself and get a better grasp on my goals I wrote them all out. The following is my new graph of goals! Is anyone else out there as anal as I am when it comes to this stuff? I'm going to tack these up on my wall with a picture of myself to make sure I get the point across to myself! I might even put them up on my fridge and pantry!
Main Goal: Lose 68lbs + 6 pant size
Deadlines: May 25th - Biggest Loser Deadline for Work Contest
July 22nd - Deadline to order Bridesmaid Dress
Oct 13th - Jaren's Wedding!
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| Reminds me I'm Beautiful |
Breakdown:
May 25, 2012
2 months
8 weeks
8weeks X 2.5lbs = 20lbs
Goal Weight - 178lbs
July 22, 2012
4 months
16 weeks
16weeks X 2.5lbs = 40lbs
Goal Weight: 158lbs
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| Can't wait to do this skinny!!!! |
October 13, 2012
6.75 months
27 weeks
27 weeks X 2.5lbs = 67.5lbs
Goal Weight: 130.5lbs
I've also created a reward system for myself! I've decided that for every 10lbs I lose I'm going to treat myself to an hour long message and then when I get to the halfway point I'm going to get a spray on tan. I refuse to do the tanning beds due to raised cancer risks and as a ginger tanning in the sun takes forever and doesn't stick so spray on it is! It will be nice not to blind myself every morning when I look in the mirror. :) Finally my ultimate reward is of course clothes!!! A new wardrobe of cute little clothes including those make-my-butt-look-good-MISS ME-jeans!!!
I'm allowed 1230 calories a day and I have been doing 1 hour of P90X a day. Though granted I did miss Kenpo X on Saturday. I don't plan on weighing or re-measuring myself until April 12th which is what I am considering my 1 month mark for P90X.
By the way I also heard of another resource from work! It is called My Fitness Pal. I am still using LIVESTRONG but my mom couldn't get that on her phone so I found this for her on the recommendation of some co-workers. It does all of the same things and is once again FREE!!
So in closing... What encourages you to keep going? What is your best kind of motivation? I had this conversation with my mom this weekend because she is on the starting line of her weight loss journey. We set up her work out room this weekend so that she will be able to spend some time everyday exercising! I am so proud of her and can't wait to see her hard work paying off! I know she can do it! Do you like hearing the praise of others? Seeing the results in the mirror or on the scale? Personally I can't wait to move down a size! I'm hoping that by the 12th I'll be in some of my packed away smaller clothes!!!
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